One of those weeks..

Just when I think I have my eating down to a science.  This week happens,  with  a lot of stress and long hours at work.  Being tired and stress are the two reasons I over eat/ binge .   I set up some rules for myself when I started WW.   No take out,  no snacks at the corner store,  no fast food except for subway and no eating at work unless it was a salad or rice and chicken( for those of you who don't know I work at a restaurant).  I broke two of these rules after three months.  I had takeout and I went to McDonald :(.  I can feel my old habits creeping back.    A wise friend told me ( hi Cassandra ;). It's need vs want.   Do I want that caramel sundae?  Yes!  But do I need it?  No.   It has no nutrition value it's empty calories and that's how I got to 274!   It's a learning process but I am willing to continue on this journey.     

Running has been a bit of struggle.  I still have three training sessions left from couch to 5km.  I should be finished by now but the last three runs are running 30 mins straight!   Although I have ran 28 minutes these last two minutes are killing me!   This week I ran 17 minutes and got tired and walked the rest of the way :(.  I know I have come far with my weight loss and improving my pace but I refuse to say I completed this program until I run three times running 30 minutes straight!   In other news I ran my fastest mile and km this week :).  

 

 

 

 

When I first started it took me over 15 minutes to run a mile and ten minutes to run a kilometre.   I can't believe it's been three months since I started running consistently and in that time I have almost ran 100kms.  

 

 

Weigh in is tomorrow I am praying for a one pound loss!   Wish me luck :). 

What is your favourite workout?    

Crappy week

I don't know where to start on this post it has been kind of a crappy week.   I went on a bender on Friday and did not stop till today. My drug of choice was food.   I just was fed up of tracking, fed up of not losing weight, fed up of trying so hard and not seeing any concrete success.  I know it's a pity party for me.   I ate my emotions this week and that kind of defeats the purpose of trying to lose weight.  You might be thinking what's "eating" at you?  Well let me tell you a couple of reasons why?

 

1.  Weather is a huge factor for me.  If I do not get enough sunlight I am miserable.  ( I know I had a plan to fight this but then depression sets it and I don't want to do anything.) 

 

2.  My Manager at work got fired which has been due to happen for a long time!  I am happy he is gone but with this comes change and although I think most will be positive, it is still change and I never do well with any sort of change.

 

3.  I have been working a lot of hours.  In the summer I was getting three days a week off but now with two jobs I am down to one. 

 

4.  Rob and I sat down to start a new budget to pay off our debt this in itself was very stressful and makes me look at how much debt we have, well more like I have since it's my school debt etc.  Don't get me wrong we are very good at paying our bills on time and paying more then the minimum on our credit cards.  But since we will need a new car next year and I will be starting nursing school.   I really want to focus on paying off as much debt in the next year as possible so we do not to have to add to are up coming expenses.

 

5.  The car was in the shop (again) I was hoping it was going to be something simple and cheap to fix but no such luck.  $525 later......  I asked my mechanic (we are besties now since I see him all the time) when I get my next oil change if he can check out the car fully to see what in the future might need to be fixed and his respond was "I see in the future a new car"  lol 

 

6.  I have had to re-evaluate some relationships in my life and this is never easy

 

 

I know my problems are not earth shattering but it's enough for me to have anxiety and to eat them away.  I know this is not the answer, but sometime it sucks when I am truly trying so hard!  

 

Rant over. 

 

Thanks for reading! 

 

How is your week going?

 

Reflection

In order to move forward in life, sometimes you need to look back and reflect on the past to see how how far you have come.  In this post I want go back two year ago to where it all started. 

(Two years ago)

Two years ago I was very uncomfortable about my body nothing was fitting me properly and It was getting harder and harder to find clothes that actually looked good or fit.  

I can also remember going  to the movies with Rob and I had to squeeze myself in the chair, the arm rests were too small  it was very uncomfortable.  To be honest any chair that had an arm rest I had to squeeze into.

My friends and I went to see a concert in Montreal and before hand we went shopping. I wasn't able to fit into anything and it made me realize that I was different it was very depressing and made me feel very fat!  

I  still a sweat alot but when I was heavier especially at work I would be very sweaty just walking around. 

Two years ago I was in denial of my eating binges and looking back it was pretty bad.  I can't guarantee I won't have another binge but at least I am aware of now.  Stress, depression and the feeling of being out of control are my triggers.

When going out to the club with friends or  really anywhere I never got checked out by men. I was always told if you just lost weight you would be gorgeous.  Blah so annoying and an awful thing to say.  

Now

I have way more options for clothing stores.  Before it was only two stores I could shop at and now I can pretty much go anywhere for shirts.  I am still plus size on the bottom but I am getting closer to being out of it!!!   

I have no problems with arm chairs anymore I did have a moment about a year back when I realized I could just sit in a movie theatre chair and not have to squeeze myself in it.  It has been a highlight of my weight loss.  

Now when  I walk, I feel lighter and move faster.   Even my friends noticed. 

Now when I go out to the bars or stores I find men looking at me.   Maybe it is because I feel more confident or  because I look better lol !  I have a boyfriend I am not looking for a man but it nice to feel noticed and to have drinks bought for you.  I never experienced that before. 

I still have body issues but I am trying to focus on the things I do like about my body.  I am proud to say I feel fit.   I still have a ways to go but I want to enjoy the ride and not just focus on the finish line. 

What things have you notice about your weight loss?

This week I went to the gym 5 times and burned 1500 calories.  Weight in day and measurement are tomorrow.  See you then.