Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Time for a change

It has been awhile since my last post.  I am still here!  Fighting the good fight.   I have been feeling very down lately but slowly I am trying to snap out of it!   I am missing my friends a great deal.  Over the last two years I have had 4 close friends move away.  Most recently my sister.    I didn't think this would be so hard but friendship is a huge part of life.   On top of that one my oldest friend who lives in the same city we barely talk anymore.  

I know there is Facebook, Skype, texting, phone etc. and I would like to think I am a loyal dependable friend but sometimes I miss the way things use to be.  As you can see I do not like change.  

I am sick of being depressed and I am sure Rob is too!  I am extremely lucky to have an amazing supportive boyfriend but it's time to get out of this rut.  

It's time to reconnect with old friends, Try new things even if it is by myself.  I sometimes wonder where the fearless Joy went?  I was always trying new things.  Meeting new people and lately this has not been the case.  This needs to change.   

Finding a career has been another source of anxiety but I am taking steps to rectify the problem.  By seeing a career counselled in the near future.  I have been afraid to make the appointment because I am worried I will not get the answers I am looking for.  But if I don't try something I am also not any further ahead.  Why is it so hard to be a grown up???   

As for my weight loss journey I am still trying.  I cancelled my Weight Watchers account not because I quit but I needed a change.  I have been tracking with My Fitness Pal.  I love how it breaks up your carbs, fat and protein for the day.  It also shows what vitamins, sodium and fibre you consume throughout the day.  It's been three weeks of logging  and I am noticing a trend of eating too much sodium and not enough fibre.  It syncs up with my FitBit too!  And the best part its free!!! 

How are you doing?   What new hobbies have you been trying or would like to try? Thanks for reading!