Tuesday, March 10, 2015

I run because......

Following my last post I have decided to say good bye to sugar but not like I usually do.  Like smoking I am being gentle with myself and slowly saying good bye to all my "close friends "foods that I binge on.  Ice cream, chips, donuts, pies, pizza, cookies, chocolate bars, bagels and cakes.   I have set a quit date March 21st first day of spring.  Just like smoking I no longer want these foods in my diet and healthy life style.   I know this will be harder than quitting smoking but I know I can do this.

I just finished my first week of weight training , I found a nine week program in "The Oxygen Magazine" and I am liking it so far and I am definitely feeling it the next day.   I haven't been very consistent with weight training in the last few years and I wanted to see if you could get actual results if you followed a program all the way through.  I will keep you posted how everything goes.  I worked out four times last week and I am feeling much better.  

I also started running as well and bought this sweatshirt lol

have a good week everyone!  

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Things on my mind

I am not sure if any of you have smoked before?   But lately I have been thinking about addiction in general.   I quit smoking 61 days ago.   I am happy not to have to go for that nagging smoke every couple of hours to help with my nicotine withdrawal.  Nicotine sure has a hold on you.  I enjoy not smelling  like smoke, saving money and having stronger lungs.   My sense of smell is even stronger than before and I noticed my teeth are whiter as well.    I have been gentle with myself in this process.  I used an e-cigarette without nicotine to help with quitting.  I used it as much as I wanted at first.  Now I barely use it anymore.

 The first month I quit smoking  I also gave up sugar and bread and was eating clean.  After the first month I slipped up a few times and now after coming back from my trip from Cuba  I  am eating sugar like it is going out of style.    I have had to make a few tough decisions in the past month and basically I just didn't want to deal with them.  So I ate instead more like binged.   The first problem was I had to say "no" to being a bridesmaid in my friends wedding because I cannot afford it.  The plane ticket alone was 800 dollars.   It was a hard decision to make because she has been my friend for over 20 years.   It was just bad timing really.  Rob and I had planned a trip to Cuba before she even got engaged in September.  Plus with me going into my slow season at work there was just no way I can afford a trip for this upcoming October and I refuse to go into debt when Rob and I have been trying so hard to get out of debt.    I finally dealt with the issue on Friday.  I am still feeling guilty about it but I know it is the right decision and I have to let it go. 

The second issue was the last of our debt.   Together Rob and I in the last 5 years have paid off over $35000.   We have about $16000 left and I just wanted to consolidate the rest of it at a lower interest rate so we can pay it off even faster.   It took 5 times to going to the bank, numerous phone calls and lots of frustration.   In the end after a month and half  we finally got what we wanted.   But it should not have taken as long as it did. 

Yes those are the reasons I ate but I need to learn not to use food for comfort.  I guess my problem is and maybe someone can give me some insight.    I am either great when I am following an eating plan but as soon as I eat something sweet.   I go off the deep end and eat everything in sight!   I have tried moderation and it doesn't work for me.  But then I read articles that say you should have everything in moderation otherwise it leads to a binge!   With smoking it  is clear.  I stop smoking cigarettes.  If someone is an alcoholic they quit drinking.  Or if you have a problem with gambling you quit it all together.   If you can't see it already I am really confused.   lol    I was thinking of making a list of all the foods that lead to a binge and just stop eating them all together.  I was also thinking of going to an concellor to see if they have tips to stop the cycle because I growing very tired of this and just want it to stop.     Having a sugar addiction is one of the hardest to stop but I am willing to try.    

Thanks for reading. 

P.S I had a great time in Cuba!  It was a nice break from the weather we are having in Ottawa, Canada.  If you are interested her are some pictures from our trip.  Cuba Pictures

P.P.S.  On Monday  I am starting my 12 week training program for my 10km Race in May