Even as I am binging I am asking myself why? I just want to crawl into bed, with a good book and escape.
I haven't been workings as much. Maybe I am bored? It also doesn't help that I am not a big fan of my job. My coworkers are getting on my nerves and I wish sometimes management would do what they are suppose to do! Thank gawd my customers keep me sane and appreciate what I do for them.
I sometimes wonder if I am afraid of success?? I just hit a milestone at weight watchers and this week I feel like I am self sabotaging by eating the way I have.
I was suppose to go for a run after work but i just lacked the motivation. Normally i can convince myself to go. Instead I sat on the couch and stuffed my face with Lara bars. I had a total of six today! I was disgusted with myself handed the box over to Rob and said hide the rest of them.
I don't want all my hard work to go down the drain :(. The one positive, if you can call it that, I tracked everything I ate! It's not pretty and I almost didn't want to. kind of like, out of sight out of mind. But I knew that wouldn't be right. For the rest of the weekend I am going to eat better and deal with my feelings with exercise or talking through them.