Reflection

In order to move forward in life, sometimes you need to look back and reflect on the past to see how how far you have come.  In this post I want go back two year ago to where it all started. 

(Two years ago)

Two years ago I was very uncomfortable about my body nothing was fitting me properly and It was getting harder and harder to find clothes that actually looked good or fit.  

I can also remember going  to the movies with Rob and I had to squeeze myself in the chair, the arm rests were too small  it was very uncomfortable.  To be honest any chair that had an arm rest I had to squeeze into.

My friends and I went to see a concert in Montreal and before hand we went shopping. I wasn't able to fit into anything and it made me realize that I was different it was very depressing and made me feel very fat!  

I  still a sweat alot but when I was heavier especially at work I would be very sweaty just walking around. 

Two years ago I was in denial of my eating binges and looking back it was pretty bad.  I can't guarantee I won't have another binge but at least I am aware of now.  Stress, depression and the feeling of being out of control are my triggers.

When going out to the club with friends or  really anywhere I never got checked out by men. I was always told if you just lost weight you would be gorgeous.  Blah so annoying and an awful thing to say.  

Now

I have way more options for clothing stores.  Before it was only two stores I could shop at and now I can pretty much go anywhere for shirts.  I am still plus size on the bottom but I am getting closer to being out of it!!!   

I have no problems with arm chairs anymore I did have a moment about a year back when I realized I could just sit in a movie theatre chair and not have to squeeze myself in it.  It has been a highlight of my weight loss.  

Now when  I walk, I feel lighter and move faster.   Even my friends noticed. 

Now when I go out to the bars or stores I find men looking at me.   Maybe it is because I feel more confident or  because I look better lol !  I have a boyfriend I am not looking for a man but it nice to feel noticed and to have drinks bought for you.  I never experienced that before. 

I still have body issues but I am trying to focus on the things I do like about my body.  I am proud to say I feel fit.   I still have a ways to go but I want to enjoy the ride and not just focus on the finish line. 

What things have you notice about your weight loss?

This week I went to the gym 5 times and burned 1500 calories.  Weight in day and measurement are tomorrow.  See you then.