I am not sure if any of you have smoked before? But lately I have been thinking about addiction in general. I quit smoking 61 days ago. I am happy not to have to go for that nagging smoke every couple of hours to help with my nicotine withdrawal. Nicotine sure has a hold on you. I enjoy not smelling like smoke, saving money and having stronger lungs. My sense of smell is even stronger than before and I noticed my teeth are whiter as well. I have been gentle with myself in this process. I used an e-cigarette without nicotine to help with quitting. I used it as much as I wanted at first. Now I barely use it anymore.
The first month I quit smoking I also gave up sugar and bread and was eating clean. After the first month I slipped up a few times and now after coming back from my trip from Cuba I am eating sugar like it is going out of style. I have had to make a few tough decisions in the past month and basically I just didn't want to deal with them. So I ate instead more like binged. The first problem was I had to say "no" to being a bridesmaid in my friends wedding because I cannot afford it. The plane ticket alone was 800 dollars. It was a hard decision to make because she has been my friend for over 20 years. It was just bad timing really. Rob and I had planned a trip to Cuba before she even got engaged in September. Plus with me going into my slow season at work there was just no way I can afford a trip for this upcoming October and I refuse to go into debt when Rob and I have been trying so hard to get out of debt. I finally dealt with the issue on Friday. I am still feeling guilty about it but I know it is the right decision and I have to let it go.
The second issue was the last of our debt. Together Rob and I in the last 5 years have paid off over $35000. We have about $16000 left and I just wanted to consolidate the rest of it at a lower interest rate so we can pay it off even faster. It took 5 times to going to the bank, numerous phone calls and lots of frustration. In the end after a month and half we finally got what we wanted. But it should not have taken as long as it did.
Yes those are the reasons I ate but I need to learn not to use food for comfort. I guess my problem is and maybe someone can give me some insight. I am either great when I am following an eating plan but as soon as I eat something sweet. I go off the deep end and eat everything in sight! I have tried moderation and it doesn't work for me. But then I read articles that say you should have everything in moderation otherwise it leads to a binge! With smoking it is clear. I stop smoking cigarettes. If someone is an alcoholic they quit drinking. Or if you have a problem with gambling you quit it all together. If you can't see it already I am really confused. lol I was thinking of making a list of all the foods that lead to a binge and just stop eating them all together. I was also thinking of going to an concellor to see if they have tips to stop the cycle because I growing very tired of this and just want it to stop. Having a sugar addiction is one of the hardest to stop but I am willing to try.
Thanks for reading.
P.S I had a great time in Cuba! It was a nice break from the weather we are having in Ottawa, Canada. If you are interested her are some pictures from our trip.
Cuba Pictures
P.P.S. On Monday I am starting my 12 week training program for my 10km Race in May
