Last night after working a twelve hour shift of running my butt off to serve people drinks and food. I started talking to a co-worker and discussing the fact that I should be skinny with all the running around I do at work plus all the workouts but sadly that is not the case.
I had to work the next morning so I basically went to bed as soon as I got home but after a busy shift I could not shut my brain off. I started to think about my weight and how frustrated I have been! Is it because I am not trying hard enough? or Because I really don't want to lose weight? Am I not on the right program? Do I not workout enough? Then my thinking started to change and I asked myself why do I want to lose weight? To be honest I didn't have a quick answer. Yes I want to lose weight to be healthy and look better but I felt like something was missing from my answer. I have been lucky in my life that my weight has not affect making friends, getting jobs or having a long term boyfriend sometimes these are reasons why people want to lose weight.
So what is my reason for losing weight???? I want to lose weight so when I look in a full lenght mirror I am proud of what I see. It might sound vain but it is the truth. I want to get to my goal weight so I can help motivate and inspire others. I want to be a be able to say " if I can do it you can do it too!"
|I want this to be me some day looking happy in the mirror|
What is stopping me from reaching my lifetime goal??? I started to search the web and came upon an article titled " Why Do You Say You Want to Lose Weight But Then Don’t Do It" Losing weight I read through the list and the one that held true to me was Fear! If you have been reading my blog for awhile you know I suffer from a panic disorder which is based on fear. I think I am afraid of people treating me different when I do get to my goal weight. I really think I should be treated the same no matter what weight I am but realistically that is not true. I noticed when I lost my first 50 pounds all the attention I was getting which was great at first but then made me think what was wrong with me before??? This is something I will have to work through but becoming aware of it is the first step right?
What are your reasons for losing weight?