Staying Strong

It has been over two weeks and I haven't eaten any of the binge foods I listed in my last post.  I am proud of myself.  It has  not been easy since I have been dealing with some emotional stuff.  It has made me a bit cranky and irritable and I feel  like I have been snapping at people at work.  I am usually a lot more patient  but feeling all these new emotions is  very overwhelming.  I know over time this will change and I will be happier in the long run and the scale has been kind to me too! 

I can't believe Christmas is just around the corner!  It really snuck up on me this year.  I was able to get our Christmas cards out on time.     Rob and I started a tradition three years ago we get my wonderfully talented sister to take Christmas photo's for our cards.   Here's this years Picture.  

 

 



I haven't been working out as much as I should but that will change tomorrow and  I will keep you posted.  My monthly challenge is going great and I am getting closer to losing 4 percent of my body weight.  This next week is definitely going to be the hardest but I am up for the challenge.   

 

I would like to wish all of you a Merry Christmas!  

I am thankful to have such a loving family

 

Good-bye

My life hasn't been very interesting lately.  It  sort of blah for a lack of a better word.   My ankle is still bothering me  and it is  hindering my workouts.   I cannot wait till it is fully healed.   I have been basically working, sleeping, reading blogs, watching television and feeling a tad bored.  I wanted to go out on the town for drinks since I got off early at work  but I realized I couldn't justify spending the money.  Rob went out with the boys for his annual Christmas Basketball Party.  It was nice to have the apartment all to myself.   

 

 I am back on track with eating it feels different this time.  Enough is Enough!  For me there are certain foods I cannot eat and I plan on never eating again because it only leads to trouble and a downward spiral.   With this binge/food addiction I have  to be abstinence from foods that make me binge.   I know it's not going to be easy and some days will be worse then others but I feel more committed then I have in a long time.  I am sick of eating my feelings.  I am done complaining about my weight and calling myself Fat and Ugly.     I truly thought I could eat every food in moderation but now that it is coming up to three years of trying to lose this weight.  I have learned it is not possible.  I have to say good-bye to some long life friends that have been there for me and who have never judged me.   So my dear friends Cookies, Donuts, Chips, Chocolate bars, Ice Cream, Cakes, Pizza it is time to say Good-bye.  Thanks for being there when I needed a pick me up.  Thanks for helping me to forgot about my problems. Thanks for making me happy when I was so angry and hurt.   Thanks for always be there unconditionally but  now it is best if we part ways.  I need to do this in a healthy way.  I need to feel my feelings, all of them good and bad.   I will never forget you and I know there will be times when I will think I need your help but I will have to lean on a higher power to get through this.  

I am thankful to have mother who taught me how to be strong.  

Monthly Challenge Update

November's Challenge was an epic fail partly due to being sick and having a sprained ankle and the other part just lacking motivation.   I would like to try this challenge again in January or February once my ankle is all healed.  

December's Challenge is to lose 4% of my body weight which works out to be 9 to10 pounds this challenge was courtesy of journeyofadreamer she put together this challenge with the help of dietbet.com.  There are over 145 people so far in this challenge and we all contribute 20 dollars if you would like to learn more just click on the link.  I love a  competition and money so why not??   A lot of people including myself gain weight over the holidays so this is a great way to stay focused.  Thanks Courtney for putting this together.  It is an open invitation so anyone can join!  

 

 

 

I went back to work after a 10 day hiatus due to my ankle.  It has be hard walking on my feet for long periods especially when I did a 10 hours shift yesterday!   I am trying to ice it as much as possible.  I know it's going to be about six to eight weeks to heal and I just have to patient.

 

How was your weekend???   Do you have any challenges for the month of December? 

I am thankful for the good friends I have in my life.