Sky is the limit

I gained 0.7 pounds last week.  Struggling but since April I have lost 30 pound.   I really want to be under 220.   I know this may sound strange but I am thinking of pretending that I am starting from scratch.  I am 223.6 as of now so starting from today this will be my new "starting weight".    For some reason I think I got it in my head that 30 pounds is a great loss and I am not pushing through!  I guess for me I have do this by increments.  Lol. whatever works right ?  Lol. So my new goals is to lose 20 pounds in three months. That would put me at 203.6.   That would be so wonderful!!  I can do this, even if these are the hardest months for me.   With my friends,family, Rob and YOUR support!  The sky is the limit :). 

Fly by post

Gained 0.2 pound this week.  I'm not overly upset it wasn't a great food week and I am glad I didn't gain a ton.   Time to step things up.  My goal is to lose 4 pounds a month.  I think this a realistic goal that I can totally accomplish.  

So far this week I have ran twice and practice yoga twice.  I tried anti-gravity which is strange and awkward but I am willing to give it a second try.   I also did Hot Yoga.  I was sweating buckets by the end of class. 

Here's a video of  anti gravity. Yep this what I did or tried to do lol

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdwqu_9llJ8


I forgot to post a picture of my Halloween Costume in my last post.  I was a sexy cookie monster :) 
I actually made a collage of the last 4 or 5 years.  Enjoy

Fuzzy picture just like our night lol
 

 

 

 

Clearing

Last week I was in a dark place.  Being too hard on myself and believing my life had no direction. This is something I struggle with daily.  In the past I am sure I have written that I was going to change my self talk and be more positive but it's not something I can shut off just like that.   I have been treating myself badly with self talk for years.  It is now something I truly want to change.   I believe this is why I put the weight on in the first place.    I want to silence all the worrying,  be kind to myself if I make a mistake,  love myself no matter where I am in my life.  This will be a challenge in it's self but I hope this will move me forward into the women I want to become.  

I came across a 21 day mediation on Oprah's website.   Looking forward to calming and clearing the mind. 

Thanks for reading

ps lost 2.5 pounds last week