Week 5

I was hoping to lose a pound but I lost .6 (total of 12.6) I have been on this healthy lifestyle for a long time and I just want to be a healthy weight already!  I would like to think I am a patience person but come already!  Sometimes I just want snap my fingers and be magically thin! A girl can dream right?    I find I have been weighing myself daily sometimes twice a day and seeing my weight fluctuate is also not good for the mind! As silly as it may sound I decided to put my scale in the trunk of my car and only bring it out for weigh in.    Hopefully this will help with my sanity.   

Weekly Workouts

Wednesday- Running ( 37 mins)

Sunday- Hiking  (1 hour 20 mins)

Monday- Running (43 mins)

I have been working a lot more hours lately and I walk well over 10000 steps a day.   Hopefully this will help with my weight loss.  I know I just have to keep eating healthy, working out and drinking my water and eventually the weight will come off.   

I can do this,  I know I can!   One foot in front of the other :)  

How do you stay motivated? 

Here we go! Week 4

Last Thursday I was stressing out about the humidity forecasted on Friday. (It was 40 C and to my American friends that equals 104 F)   Why does that matter ?  because I had to work as a waitress and serve food and drinks and every time it is super humid I am a sweaty mess especially on my face.   It's embarrassing and really besides medication there is not much I can do.   My coworkers are always commenting on it which causes more stress and more sweating!   I decided instead of worrying about it I would go to the pharmacy to see if they have anything helpful.  I did this at  two am but sadly the only  products I found where  for underarm, the palm of you hands or the sole of your feet.   I did not want to risk putting it on my face and  breaking out on top of it!   At this point I am feeling miserable and wanting my anxiety to go away!   I wandered the store to find my drug of choice which meant anything with sugar.  I ended up buying a bag of 20 mini chocolate bars knowing full well it was a bad I idea!  I had about 15 bars before I came to my senses and realized I wasn't even tasting what I was consuming.   And it wasn't making me feeling any better.  I grabbed all the empty wrappers and  had enough  strength to throw the rest out.  I logged all the chocolate bars in my fitness pal.  On top of that I had purchased a big bag of Pop Chips.  As soon as I logged my calories I opened the bag and dumped the contents in the garbage.  Overall I am proud of myself for the end result.  And I hope this is another step to conquering my binge disorder.  It is not easy to write this,  I feel ashamed of my behavior but my hope is for someone to read this and realize they are not alone in this battle.  

In other news I gained 0.6 pounds last week. (Total loss 12 to date)  Beside the binge I had on Thursday I have been good with my workouts and eating.   Tomorrow is weigh in day and I  am hoping to see a loss!  

Thanks for reading :)  

Week Three

I am a little late on my stats from last week.  

Here goes:  243.4 (-2.2)  Total of 12.6 pounds loss

Weekly Workouts

Thursday- Swimming Treading water, 30 mins (220 calories)

Friday- Jogging, 31 mins (292 calories)

Sunday- Elliptical, 43 mins (314 calories) 

I have now been on this journey for 26 days and  I feel my fitness has improved.  I am making healthier food choices.  I am cooking a lot more which I am slowly starting to enjoy.  What I am also learning from this journey is that I cannot be perfect all the time.   That I need to take one day at a time and be present.  And if I make a mistake to not give up!   A week before my period my emotions go haywire and I am so up and down.  I have been this way since I was 11 years old.  I doubt myself, think I am not good enough. Basically I am my worst enemy.  For one week a month it is a struggle to deal with my emotions and stay on track.  I am glad I am aware of it and that is half the battle.  If anyone has suggestions for bad PMS??  I would love to hear it.  

Thanks for reading.