Last Thursday I was stressing out about the humidity forecasted on Friday. (It was 40 C and to my American friends that equals 104 F) Why does that matter ? because I had to work as a waitress and serve food and drinks and every time it is super humid I am a sweaty mess especially on my face. It's embarrassing and really besides medication there is not much I can do. My coworkers are always commenting on it which causes more stress and more sweating! I decided instead of worrying about it I would go to the pharmacy to see if they have anything helpful. I did this at two am but sadly the only products I found where for underarm, the palm of you hands or the sole of your feet. I did not want to risk putting it on my face and breaking out on top of it! At this point I am feeling miserable and wanting my anxiety to go away! I wandered the store to find my drug of choice which meant anything with sugar. I ended up buying a bag of 20 mini chocolate bars knowing full well it was a bad I idea! I had about 15 bars before I came to my senses and realized I wasn't even tasting what I was consuming. And it wasn't making me feeling any better. I grabbed all the empty wrappers and had enough strength to throw the rest out. I logged all the chocolate bars in my fitness pal. On top of that I had purchased a big bag of Pop Chips. As soon as I logged my calories I opened the bag and dumped the contents in the garbage. Overall I am proud of myself for the end result. And I hope this is another step to conquering my binge disorder. It is not easy to write this, I feel ashamed of my behavior but my hope is for someone to read this and realize they are not alone in this battle.
In other news I gained 0.6 pounds last week. (Total loss 12 to date) Beside the binge I had on Thursday I have been good with my workouts and eating. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am hoping to see a loss!
Thanks for reading :)